Monday, March 9, 2009

Really Rough Day

You know those things that bother you all the time, but you sweep them under the rug because what's the point of dwelling on things that you can't change anyway? Well, the problem with sweeping them under the rug is that they are still there. Sure, dwelling on them doesn't change anything, but I'm not good at letting things go. I understand the concept of giving a problem (or two, or fifty...) to God, but my problem is that once I give it to him, it is always still in my mind. God has yet to take a troubling thought from my mind, so it always shows back up at some point in time. Usually when I least expect it.
Today, for some silly reason, all of those thoughts that do me no good to dwell on, have flooded my brain and I can't concentrate on anything else. I am sitting at my desk (yes, I'm supposed to be working), and these thoughts just creep up and I have been on the verge of tears all day.
In a nutshell, I am worried sick about my job. I know a lot of people are in the same situation, and my heart goes out to each one of them. No, I don't have children or a family to support, but with that, I also don't have the luxury of a second income coming in. If I don't have a job, I don't have anything other than my parents to fall back on. (Praise the Lord I have them, they are wonderful). So, it is hard to concentrate at work, despite the number of mind tricks I play on myself. On top of that, there are friendships that aren't going the way they should, or that I'm just not feeling 'right' about right now, and I don't really know what to do about them. It's not worth talking to anyone about really, so I just sweep it under the rug too, but they came out today as well. Yuck.
I'm just gonna sit at my desk and pray, and hopefully the day gets better.
I hope you are having a blessed day - and thanks for letting me rant.

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