Choices

You hear all your life that the most popular choices are not always the right choices. That to do what is best is often difficult. I've been experiencing that a lot lately. I have made a huge decision to move. I am looking forward to a new job, new challenges professionally, new opportunities and outlets for my creativity, being closer to my family, essentially establishing the next chapter in my life. I am excited about it, but it is also difficult. Parts of me are torn and will be for a while.
When you leave a place that you have been settled into for so long, it is hard. I have made the right choice, but in some instances, it is not the popular one. Even within my own thoughts sometimes. My brain runs 100 miles an hour, it often runs in five directions at once. One direction is the excitement, the other direction is nerves and anxiety, there is a separate direction for relationships that will be disrupted, torn, and severed.
This is a difficult time. I'm trying to finish one chapter while I'm starting another. This chapter has been long and complex and is full of memories, emotions, love, and security. I'm scared. I'm sad. I'm hurting. I'm anxious. I'm hopeful. I'm excited. I'm blessed. I'm human......